So, I found this thing on Pintrest aka: every mom’s secret (or not so secret) obsession. It comes from the blog Janine Ripper and I would definitely recommend reading her stuff if you are on your own self discovery journey. The post I am referring to is 105 Prompts for Self-Exploration. I don’t know that I will do all the prompts, but I feel like this is a good starting point for keeping consistent blog posts coming.
The first prompt is sharing why you are blogging and I feel I have already done that, so I consider that one done. That means I will be starting with number 2!
Share your favorite affirmations.
I can’t say that I have ever done anything with affirmations. To be honest, I had to look up the general meaning of the word. So, I have picked out a few that go along with some of the issues I have.
What others think of me is their choice. What I think of me is my choice.
This is something I struggle with every day. I am constantly afraid of what others think of me. I know a big part of it is my anxiety and depression bogging me down and I have gotten a lot better recently in this area. But there are still times where I catch myself thinking of how others perceive me. In a sense, I think it is good thing, especially in a professional or parental sense. You always want your boss or your children to think of you positively (even though there are times when you swear your kids despise you). The worst part of it, though, is I let how others see be dictate how I see myself. This is the part that I am working to change. I know that I am not what others make me out to be, but it is hard to see that sometimes, so it is nice to be reminded every once in a while.
I believe in myself more each day.
Again, this is something I have struggled with my whole life. Self confidence isn’t something that I have had an abundance of. Physically, I’ve always considered myself O.K. at best and in everything else I always ranked below average. But, I’m working on it. It helps that I have a husband that compliments me and never lets me forget that he finds me attractive. Also, my two year old tells me I’m beautiful like Elsa, so there’s that! I’ve recently started the whole bare-minimum make up thing and have experienced my skin becoming far healthier and I have lost some weight in the past few weeks, so it’s looking up in that department. I feel like I’m going to struggle more with my inner self issues than my outer ones, though. Time will tell.
I’ve gotten through this before, so I can do it again.
The biggest monsters in my life are my anxiety and depression. I have never been officially diagnosed, though after having Evie I was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression. Everyday I have to battle through them in one way or another. It’s hard to get out of bed more often than not and there are so many times where I am just at war with myself. Do I stay in bed and stay safe under the covers or do I get up and clean the house to the point where my fingers are raw because of the anxiety of the clutter of having pets and a toddler? Honestly, if it weren’t for Evie and Brent, I don’t know where I would be at. Having people that depend on me is a healthy dose of reality when I hit my low points. I plan on starting to go to a GP and seeing about possibly getting some medication to even me out. I just know something has got to give.
Well, that’s all I’ve got for now. I suppose it isn’t too bad of a start! Any kind of declaration at this point is helpful in my eyes. Tomorrow will be What are you passionate about? It should be fun!